Sometimes when I feel unmotivated and down I ponder what ever made me think I could to anything. And tho I am old, I come back to The Matrix, and the lovely and then unheard of (unless you were like me & my brother and watched ‘Models, Inc’) Carrie-Anne Moss flying through a window, rolling down a flight of stairs, and coming up with both guns drawn, panting and scared, saying “Get up, Trinity, just get up. GET UP!”

Here was a woman who – unbeknownst to us – had been handling her shit and getting it done with Morbeus for quite some time, feeling a bit overwhelmed. Having to pep talk her way to the payphone booth. And I think to myself well, damn girl, it’s not life or death, it’s just sitting down in front of your expensive computer and typing for a few extra hours a week. Despite your tendonitis and fibromyalgia and everyday stress…it’s not like you have an Agent on your ass ready to wipe you out of existence.

And then I think Oh, but it IS like that, if I don’t write down the things in my head I may go crazy and one day confuse reality with my dreams or my memories like my father. Or I may just wake up one day and realize I paid my bills but my soul is broke. Or I will start to type and the words won’t come.

So when the feeling builds up and the night is long I will witch-up and write it all down, like I am right now. Because there is a noise in my head that will not be quiet, a drive that will not stay down forever, a need to share what I see and feel with the world…or at least a few good friends. And maybe somebody out there will like it; or maybe they will cut me down with their anonymous internet scorn. But no one knows what I have lived through but me. And I will NOT be judged by anyone I do not consider a peer. I will fly upside-down like in my visions and I will still go farther than most.

Join me or ignore me, the choice is yours. I cannot stress, however, how balls-out exciting this journey will be, so ignore me at your loss, haters; I can name five people that would help me hide a body – how many friends like that do YOU have?!

Kiss noise – M.StrainLuv

Hello from Texas Frightmare 2019 my Luvlies!! I will be posting pics and stuff later when I’ve got better reception but it is the last day of an amazing con, stay tuned!

kiss noise – M.StrainLuv

Hello my Luvlies – and so begins my blog. Blah. My plan is to review some films, update you on my own productions, and maybe – just maybe – get my graphic novel out there. So here is some stuff about me:

1. Movies: I love movies. All of them: bad ones, good ones, pretty ones, gory ones…you get the drift. My mother took me to see Alien when it came out and I was 9yrs old. I love me some horror but I am by NO MEANS an expert. My reviews will not reflect upon their homage to some old guy who made movies in the silent days; not that I object or dislike them, I just did not watch them. I never went to film school, my opinions are not educated and will therefore not be fluffy like art reviews. You can know that if I use the word “incandescent” I MEAN it
2.  I have a full-time job so if I do not post as frequently as others, my bad, I have to pay rent. In the words of Shawn Spencer of Psych SUCK IT. I wish this was all I did for money but it is not, so there’s that then.
3. I occasionally make short horror films. I thank the forces around us every day that I am able to create in this way. The Arthurian Legend is my love, my everything, my pet project for over 20yrs. While I have been educated in its origins, etc. I will not entirely concede its misogynistic tones and you can fault me all you want…hey, I promise my work will still be a cut above First Knight (a very low bar)

That is all. Kiss noise – M

This site may have swearing and violence and sexual references as I am old and stuff. So if you are not 17yrs old, ask you parents for permission to hang here. I’m gonna review movies, and write about art & various subjects, and there might be swearing or nudity or blood. So get permission.

That is all.